The Pursuit of Happyness

Well, well, well...what do i say about this movie. Its a good movie. Makes me introspect...Do i work hard enough?? And do i splurge money unnecessarily??

One needs patience to watch this flick. And to appreciate the movie...is a much more difficult task. Because we are ready to pay Rs.120 for a ticket at INOX...once upon a time it used to be big money...and it is still big money to many...yeah, many...So, one is not able to empathise with Chris and his struggle...he has just $22 and a son to take care, no shelter and no job...only an internship and grit.Normally indian cinema portrays struggle in "one song" and then the lead character just strikes success repeatedly. But here, the whole film is about the struggle and the sweet success is the last 2 minutes.

It tells me... that i am in a very comfortable position in life and to appreciate what i have with me and work hard, give my best. Also, tells me to empathise with people.

If you havent seen the movie...above will seem crap.."blah blah". So Go and See the movie for yourself.

Humans - we are Mighty...yes we are

Life is a new experience everyday. New challenges, new obstacles to face, unexpected turn of events, unusual circumstances. And all this just hits on the face not giving any time to prepare.

The answer is our inertia...our inability to accept change. We may still accept, but it is not easy. It means foregoing the dreams, trashing the plans, falsifying what we believed was true. Most of all, we are hit by the reality that we are helpless and we have no choice but to accept whatever is forced on us.

The number of elements that we can control are very less...most of the time it is only one...ourselves. And hence we go through the grind.

The above is the case across the human race irrespective of any divisions that have been laid down by us. Only the obstacle is different, challenges are different. Enormity remains same....BIG, else it would never be a challenge. Yes, on hind sight the same challenge could become an easy to tackle issue, if posed again....or sometimes it is just nothing...because we have already been through the tunnel and we are now equipped.

It is the cloud of emotions, the turmoil that one has to go through when met with a "no-choice situation" which makes life seem bleak, God non-existent. And this is the time when one's stand becomes "I will stay aloof. I dont need anyone. I shall be like this. Let me see how things dont change."

But nothing is impossible. Humans are the most robust of control systems i.e no matter what change happens in the system, we can adapt to the situation. And we can fight the adversity. We have the power to see through the haziness. We can sail through the storm.

Sometimes we realise we have a few qualities that never surfaced before. We then start loving life again. Now that we have become mighty, we also have the heart to understand others plight when it comes to situations similar to the ones we faced.

Humans we are, we are mighty. We need to be more understanding of others, thats all.

If each one could hear what the other person's prayer is, there wouldnt be any problem in the world.

10th Grade

As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.
She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang.
On the other end,
it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her
love had broken her heart.
She asked me to come over because
she didn't want to be alone, which I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, and one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go home.
She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss
on the cheek..
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Senior year
One fine day she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick" she said, "his not gonna go", well,
I too didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'.
So we did. That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her as she smiled at meand stared at me with her crystal eyes.
Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Graduation
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and
gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Marriage
Now I sit in the pews of the church.
That girl is getting married now.
and will be driving off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came ...!'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Death
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:"I stare at him wishing he was mine;
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him,
I want him to know thatI don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me!
.........'I wish I did too...'
I thought to my self, and I cried.

Highlight

Today was another boring day at work......itna bada order jo liya hai...execute karte karte chakkar aa raha hai.

Called up Padhu for dinner.....we headed straight for Brilliant Tutorials Dosa Point....heard there is a community for it in Orkut. Had 3 good dosas and a bisleri....was not sure if the bisleri was genuine. but had no choice and gulped it down.

I had given my bike.....my dear Splendor+...for Servicing. And being Stupid...like Forrest Gump...(I saw it yday so cant help comparing myself with him), i havent taken my bike back for the last 4 days. Whenever i realise it is already too late for the day.

So i told Padhu to drop me at Vadapalani....but then there was no one at home. Today was Basant Panchami...to sab log koi mandir gaye. (....I found some way out of it). So we decided to sit and chit chat...we went off to Natesan Park...and mosquitoes gave good company.

Then i got a call from dad ..."Hum log ravana ho gaye"....and we started off too. I suddenly had the desire to ride the Enfield...Padhu's bullet. And i did!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....all the way from Natesan Park to Vadapalani. It was not all that tough as i thought. Maybe because traffic was sparse.

Riding the Enfield was the highlight of the day....its good to learn new things....makes life interesting.

The Scorp

It has been real hectic at office since november. (and i come home prettty LATE beyond 11 pm...only to sleep...not even for dinner). On New Year Day 1 Jan 07, got up at 5 o clock, the car was waiting outside.....picked p a colleague and then we went straight to a client's place ...that sums up the state of affairs.

Well, i am not complaining because all that has resulted into some good successes, the last one was a big one....real big!!

On 3rd of Jan we recieved the LOI for 11 Mio Rupees..... Time to celebrate. Executing such a big order in 2 weeks is a challenge. And had to stay late night that day too....logging orders on our factory.

And now something interesting.....i called up my buddy - Padhu to have dinner...a quick one. We were at Saravan Bhavan (no other option yet)....at Peter's road. And we were dining in Velli Thattu...thats what i call it, dinner is served in silver plates.

We chose a table facing the road.....who cares about the road. It was also facing another table on the far side from the restaurant's entrance....a real beauty sitting faced in my direction. And that was it,,,, i ordered....a 14 idli, followed by a dosa and then a curd rice (all this was too much for me and i had to have all these quickly) ..the girl was softer than all these dishes....hehe.

I was telling Padhu that the girl had to be a Scorp (....effect of reading Linda Goodman's)....and he asked me why am i saying that. He wanted to get up and ask her if she was one, but....she had come with her family....huh. I dont know if she knew we were talking about her all the time and about my admiration.

I enjoyed eating all the dishes.....i had to devour quickly.

And Padhu too had reason to be happy....5 girls walked into the restaurant and sat on the table next to ours. Padhu said these girls are from University of Iowa...this was more incredible than my judgement of her being a Scorp....He had seen a hoarding "Welcome to students of University of Iowa" at another hotel earlier in the day and indeed, their English had a heavy US accent. He picked his "best of the lot" and I gave my nominations too...hehe. I liked the one in all black(...she was pretty)

.....the Scorp was the highlight of the day. Hope to see her again some day.

Shayari....

Dard mein koi mausam pyaara nahin hotha, Dil ho pyaasa tho paani se guzaara nahin hotha, Dekhe zara koi bebasi hamaari, Hum uske ho gaye,jo kabhi hamaara na ho saka...!

This too is lifted...from orkut...a profile titled "Jina isi ka naam hai"

The last one month has been hectic...with so much work around.

Couple of my colleagues down one after the other with the notorious "Chikungunya"
That increased the load on me....sick of it. Felt real lonely.

And while i was just getting through this work....one success spurred another...hardwork paid off.

And so much happening with me (nothing but work..:(...)
"Something else" that happened at work also disturbed me a lot. It just went on to speed up my decision to quit and start something of my own....where one doesnt have to listen/bear injustice and ruthlessness. Now i am all the more sure of this.

And finally.....Mr. Rajshekar Reddy targetting Ramoji Rao... for Eenadu having published "revealing" articles about him. The AP CM joins the long list of corrupt, dictatorial remorseless and politicians. He thinks the public has brains in the As$. Its time he is removed either by Congress or worst by the public. Deserves a good lesson.

Now with a couple of days off from work......its just heaven. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!